Big Evil Doomsday

The combination of Big Evil and Doomsday have claimed me.

The stress of dealing with parental units and humans have driven me past being insane.

False christianity. Brow beating everyone to think and feel their way. Their church feels like a jim jones cult. I am merely waiting for them to drink the kool aid. True they are old, since they are in their 70s. Seems like dimentia and alzheimers have set in or something. This trying to move them from bama to here is still on the table and I am not sure if it will ever get done.

The rage has caught me. I am lost in it. Feeding upon it's marrow. All I desire is inflicting pain upon the humans. Subjugating them to my will.

The monkeys group together on fb. And as I listen to Munchkin I want to watch them be crushed beneath a steam roller while I enjoy a nice drink.

Like an evil ronin. I stand here upon my destiny. My blade wishes to bite. Cleave through flesh, bone and mind. Calling me. I just need to be sated. To release everything.

This culmination of the split of my rage.
Even concerns me.

That Thing Called Family

I grew up in a family where there was none of that closeness that people speak of. We were a military family and supposed to be mired in strength and survival. From moving all over the world to having a male parental unit that stayed gone for work.

Years of staying in the house on base in Japan. To unable to do much when I was graduating in Germany because of living so far away from the base and school. The adventures have always been there.

Parental units have changed in my dynamic. From parents to beings that took care of me growing up. Now they are something different. Morphed into a facade of christianity that I find annoying when nice and repugnant at full strength. I may not be a super pious person but my choices are my own and I have chosen not to lead anyone astray from the path that they have chosen. The female parental units gossiping and nasty attitude when she doesn't get her way or is acknowledged as right is far from being godly. The male parental unit is no better. With his infidelity and need to try and emphasize a need to go to church and all disgusts me. Have they turned me against being a christian? No, they haven't but they definitely have made it a cesspool by their example.

After all these years and talking to Auntie I really have wondered if the church they have been attending in bama is a cult or not now. The no pants for females and females are subserveant to their men are old society values. But the need to attack people with their beliefs is really disturbing. When they have done it to the few people of mine that they met made me make sure not to let them meet anyone as much as possible. They have ambushed those I know including my wife when she was alive and it infuriated me.

When people talk about you mirror the way your family was growing up I inform them that they are wrong. I am the proof positive of the opposite factor. I didn't and won't live like them if I get married again and definitely didn't when I was married.

Does family have importance to me? Hell yes! My Family does. Meaning my wife and my children if I had them. Do I care about the family I am related to? Yes, just nowhere as deeply as I do for mine.

I just feel the anger from all the facades and lies that family has chosen to provide.

The Decline Until Manhood Died

From the feminism of male boys through females, media and lack of actual men being in the process. We now have these boys running around with skinny jeans, dancing like little hoes and thinking it is acceptable. While adults and others merely laugh and condone it.

Monkeys running around treating monkey bitches like they are queens. It is one thing to just fuck them because that is all they are worth. But stop pretending like they are anything more than that. Stop giving them the false thoughts of achieving womanhood.

I have basically nothing but female friends. But I remain and excel at being a man because I am who and what I am. Not the extension or the impression of what others think. Too many males are running around doing the opposite.

Like the episode with the mule face monkey bitch and them fools in that sanford group on fb. I don't give a fuck about them. They have no meaning to me. Just a low form of entertainment. And for that mule face monkey bitch to claim I asked her ugly, stinking, retarded ass out anywhere. I meant what I said I am going to kill her and her worthless kids if I cross paths with them. Fuck them sensitive people.

As a man you stand up. Speak your mind and heart. Even when others hate, despise and want to denounce you for it. A man shows his true mettle during the slow walks in the valley of death constantly.

Males must transition back to brutal honesty and reality. Say what needs to be said and to hell with their damn feelings!